Icarus! Icarus!

Growing so tired
To feel so left alone
Thinking I want escape
From sin I can't condone

They're repeating the past
It's their comforting drill
No change for one's other
Due to lack of self-will

So Icarus! Icarus!
Lend me your wings!
So they may take me away
From such earthly things
I'm terribly tired
Waiting here in the dark
So send me your wings
Before I'm torn apart.

Is there no one like me
In this conformist new world
Are they tucked scared in a corner
Like a scared, little girl

So I wonder in days like today
And during nights like these
If there is anyone else out there
Crying and begging "please"

So Icarus! Icarus!
Lend us your wings!
So I may use them to find
Those seeking same things
I will not fly us
Up close to the sun
But to some other world
Where wont come undone

Oh flier, I fall begging
I'm pleading my case
Oh angel, with your wings
Take me away from this place

This ground is no limit
To all the worlds I feel
Let me fly past the horizon
And let the wind take the wheel

Oh Icarus! Icarus!
Please lend me your wings!
So they may take me away
From such earthly things
I'm wickedly worn
Waiting with this as my plea
Swoop down from above
Take me to infinity.

We Were Superheroes

What was it like
To live out days like a child?
Why cant I remember
Those days when we ran wild?

Do you remember the days of donning capes and superpowers?
The enemies we fought
The cities we'd save
Hour after hour
Do you remember these days when we were dynamic duos?
Brother! Do you remember when-
When we were superheroes?

Running around aloud
Without shoes and without a care!
Soaring around in skies
Made in our minds with no need for air!

Do you remember the days when we were free?
We were invincible
We were powerful
We were whoever we wanted to be.
Do you remember our days of innocence no one else knows?
Brother! Do you remember when-
When we were superheroes?

Where are those days
That bring sighs into my chest?
One day we'll be back
In time when, maybe, life was at its best...

Bombshell Reprise

There's a hollowed out house
From a bombshell drop.
Shadows flashburnt to the walls
Sparse shelter offered atop.

A city left in vacant ruin
From a megaton blast.
A shockwave to swallow it up
Lives stolen away so fast.

A crater remains to see,
Residue still lingers in air
Along a faltering sense of safety
How could this have been fair?

A neighbor now stranger
Scavenge what can be found
All thoughts revolve in madness
This is no longer 'safe and sound'.

The decision to stop a country
So consequence falls here.
Leaving a city in aftershock and dust
For the whole world to fear.

An Apology in Advance.

My dear son,
Know I wasn't always like this.
My sweet daughter,
Know what I mean when I kiss.

My beloved children,
Allow love into your beginning lives.
Do not imitate father,
Doubtful of it, no matter his tries.

Happiness, my dears,
Reality available to those willing.
Unlike your father,
His thoughts warrant it unfulfilling.

My strong young son,
Help those drowning in what is dark.
My kind hearted girl,
Pray for those broken to come back.

My little doll,
Look to your mother.
My little man,
Pray for your father.

I am only a man.
A flawed representation of our Maker.
Please children,
Do not let this spirit, in your lives, linger.

Self Aware.

Have I really been gone this whole time,
I've been waiting
Where did you go to this- this moment.

I've been looking around for a long time,
I've been searching
Where did all this time just- just go to.

It seems like I've been passing by forever,
I've been watching
Where are all the sight and- and sounds.

I feel like forever and seconds are alike,
I'm losing touch
Moments and Millennia seem the- the same.

I've become something infinite and breaking,
I've seen nothing
I've seen absolutely everything I- I could.

I can't seem to grip onto my existence,
I've lost it
I can feel everything flying by- by me.

I am everywhere though I know to be lost,
I cannot tell
I've never felt this before. I am- I'm confused.

Wait...
Where am I?

I... I feel like I've been gone this whole time...
Why have I been waiting?

nothing.

i have nothing to hide from you.
you have nothing to fear.
you shy away with secrets.
why are you vague instead of clear...

you have no reason to distrust me.
no reason either to hide.
your semantics make me question,
what is your true nature inside...

why cant you just be real with me?
just sit and be who you are.
just calm down and simmer out
be human, not lookin for a superstar.

i don't care who you think is watching
i don't care if you want to be cool
i don't care if you want to be hip and in
i don't abide my life by such a rule

i'm just going to want a person
not a body for someone else
there's no need for fame or renoun
if you're stuck alone here by yourself.

i have nothing to hide.
i have no fear to tell you anything.
i have no cause for shying away.
i have an answer for anything you want to know.
i have an open book for you to read.
i have a life with nothing to withhold.
i want the same.
i want the truth.
i want trust.
i want behavior worth holding onto.
i want someone similar to me, not like me
but not like what we used to be.
not a child.
a person.
grow.
become something worth holding onto
become something worth putting trust in.
become something.
hurry, but don't rush.
there is a difference between speeding through and being efficient with time.
grow.
don't wait.
proactive.
initiative.
take control.
take leeway.
take advantage.
take the first step.
don't wait.
life is not a waiting game.
waiting will get you nowhere while you wonder why it didn't make a difference.
don't sit.
stand.
don't be silent.
think.
don't talk.
understand.
don't fumble.
anticipate.
don't try.
do.

don't wait.
accomplish.
grow.
begin.
grow.
in the meantime, i'll be nothing for this.

Cleft for Me

After reading:

"One thing I ask of the LORD, this is what I seek: that I may dwell in the house of the LORD all the days of my life, to gaze upon the beauty of the LORD and to seek him in his temple. For in the day of trouble he will keep me safe in his dwelling; he will hide me in the shelter of his tabernacle and set me high upon a rock."
Psalm 27:4-5 

I begin to think:

Woe in me, why do I fear a thing...
Why are dark skies so frightening...
Was it not You, O God, that made the world?
It it not You, O God, in who's hands I'm curled..
Ashamed when I sin in my sinfilled role
You redeem my wrongs and cleanse my soul
High, You lift me up, yet I'm afraid
Yes, I know I'm safe under Your shade,
But how can You, through the mistakes I've made,
See a life worth saving with the blood You paid...
How can I be worth that cost?
My filthy life, just count it lost!
Why do you use your blood you split that day
To drop on my head and wash away
Transgressions I commit against Your love
Yet still You are holding me high above
All my sins
All my fears
All my time spent in wasted years
All my crying
All my pain
All the time You gave I spent in vain
Your love, from it, I can't escape
I'm in awe of You...
When Mountains and Worlds is what You shape
But as Your eye is on the sparrow...

Even Lord as Your eye is on this little one...
So, too, do You think of me, and all I've done,
You still take me in my days of storms
You tuck me away from mine enemies swarms
You do not count me too high a cost
But as a young sheep who was simply lost

So
May I find You one day, O Lord
In Your tabernacle, O my God...
May I only feel a shimmering radiance of Your beauty
May I be strong enough to only bask in its boundary
Not to speak in my voice, not to whisper a single word,
But to cry and then cry out above all things, forever
"O Lord, You are my God and, in You alone, do I find rest"

I am no Job.

Days like these pull me under

Days like today make me want to tear my skin asunder

To rip it down into the insides

To see what makes me tick

And find the gears that rot me fowl

That make me feel so sick.

Days like these bear a heavy load

Days like these make me want to scream until my lungs explode

To let go of that last gasp of air

To feel collapse inside my chest

And find the black thick that filled me up

That makes me feel of emptiness

I want it gone

So take it please

I want life like theirs

A life of peace

I know there's trials

I face them now

I just want to wake up

And be able to smile somehow

I feel a plague

Deep in my skin

It takes me over

All day from within

Is "truly happy" hard to find

Why can't I find it

And just make it mine

Days like these I hardly find Light

Days like these make me wonder why I continue to fight

To let it happen without a doubt

To let it simply go and let it be

And find the purpose that I need to start

That gives the Builder all of me

Titanomachy

Please read this first.
And maybe this.

A stronger son I've always been

Among my brothers and my kin

Destined for power I've always known

Not sadden in who is to be overthrown

And dare that I may have to say

The Underworld is the only way

For he deserves what he has given

Thrown sons away to the darkest prison

So in my sins, I take no pride

But now my father is by my side

And a sickle, then, in mine other hand

Yet it is his life that they demand

And with no counteroffer of any worth

He will now regret even my day of birth

For he tyrants over all things that grow

My sisters, brothers, and all I know

So in ambush then I must plan to act

And once begun, I cannot retract

So a mournful echo and resounding ring

I found my weapon that I did swing

On the side of my father next to me

My joyful Mother, I see, sits happily

What once made my father fit to be

I cast it out now into the depths of the sea

And his blood does spill onto the earth

Bringing up strange creatures of new birth

Sighs in saddess, Mother falls to her knees

Regarding my choice of my first decrees

In banishing back to where once they were

She speaks of a time beknowst to her

"So as the son his Father overcame,

Your son too will conquer you to reign"

I've heard her cry so I shall prepare

To devour mine so that I have no heir

My wife then brings them as they are born

In doing so she has become torn

But today her cries has no saddened tone

How odd that this one tastes like stone...