I am no Job.

Days like these pull me under

Days like today make me want to tear my skin asunder

To rip it down into the insides

To see what makes me tick

And find the gears that rot me fowl

That make me feel so sick.

Days like these bear a heavy load

Days like these make me want to scream until my lungs explode

To let go of that last gasp of air

To feel collapse inside my chest

And find the black thick that filled me up

That makes me feel of emptiness

I want it gone

So take it please

I want life like theirs

A life of peace

I know there's trials

I face them now

I just want to wake up

And be able to smile somehow

I feel a plague

Deep in my skin

It takes me over

All day from within

Is "truly happy" hard to find

Why can't I find it

And just make it mine

Days like these I hardly find Light

Days like these make me wonder why I continue to fight

To let it happen without a doubt

To let it simply go and let it be

And find the purpose that I need to start

That gives the Builder all of me