Redemption

By the edge of the bank,

The wayside of the water,

Memories rehashed

Of times spent in horror..

I speak from my soul,

My heart and my mind

In a painful reviving

Of the sullen, dark time.

Apologies, corrections,

Explanations I'm told

Of the events only rumored

Reanimating sadness so bold..

Then actions spoke out,

Much louder than words,

And I'm born into a place

That's not of this world.

A state where I'm happy,

But sad and confused..

Where I'm free from a burden

Though poised maybe to lose.

Either way in this place,

I won't let it go.

I've waited too long

To let it pass and never know.

It's a tad tainted, but pure.

Truly bittersweet to the core.

The taste of closure

That opens more doors.

So I take off into the night,

Departing for a new home,

Thoughts now born run berserk,

My mind is set widened to roam.

Now my world's upside down.

My split emotions in strife.

These random twists seem abundant

In this chapter of my life.

Pros and cons are my songs

As I now sift through my days

In an odd pleasant confusion

Of new directions and ways..

As the voice of reason echos out

Following desire and wanting more,

When innocent love chimes her song

That we both simply cannot ignore:

"Is this what you want?

Is this what you need?

Is this something inside

That you just want to scream?

To the top of your lungs,

To the top of this earth,

Does the freedom this gives you

Best all other matters of worth?

Does this mean enough to you

To hold on to what you find...

Give hope to this unknown

That it may be one of a kind?"

Is there anything left to believe in?

My God, I hope this is true....

I know what I believe in, but

Somethings cannot be seen through.

So after the choices are made,

Of pathways I choose to take,

I realize I must be aware

These are the decisions I've made.

So this new peaceful confusion

I believe not to be Love's illusion

But rather my Past's evolution

Leading to a new happy conclusion.